I actually started to find boobs disgusting as my top dysphoria increased. I used to love them before.
:D Boobs ftw~
Wow,I’ll try to forget,too
not being able to do T and being an anthropologist, i’ve always wondered how much of the behavioral masculinization during hormone therapy is due to conforming to idealized masculinity as opposed to actual hormones. also, it would help me come to terms with some really misogynistic post-T transmen i’ve met.
Based on personal experience and observation, testosterone seems to increase sexual attraction to females. That’s not to say that it hijack’s ones sexual orientation, but it does seem to broaden it. This could also be due to increased libido. As for misogyny among transmen, that seems more likely rooted in a life-long attempt to distance themselves from identification with females. Most transmen I know are advocates of gender equality, but there is always that element who over-corrects.
It’s interesting how since everyone falls on a different place in the spectrum, everyone has a different experience with this. In my case I fluctuated between disgust and ambivalence toward my own protrusions. On the other hand, I recognized that I had no aversion to them on other people.
When I seriously began to consider transition, I *did* experience a form of grief. Although bound and hidden during the day, I lay in bed and caressed them at night, asking myself if I was sure. The fear stemmed mainly from the fact that I consider myself predominately gay, and realized I would likely never touch breasts again. It’s a strange sensation to appreciate a part of yourself from the perspective of an outsider.
Wow, thanks for sharing this. I can sort of relate to that, and I hate the doubt it causes.
Wow, thanks for sharing that. I can sort of relate to this, and I hate the doubt it causes. Especially because I certainly experience massive dysphoria.
©2010-2016 Morgan Boecher | Powered by WordPress with ComicPress
| Subscribe: RSS
| Back to Top ↑